Sunday, March 31, 2013

Notes: Dreams, Fitness, & Other Stuff

  1. This has been a really awesome weekend, spent mostly having girl time with Mother Darling.  I'm so glad I can finally call my mom my friend, because for a while she was just mom.  Now that I'm older, we have an adult relationship and she is one of my best friends. The bond we share is fortune. 
  2. In the process of applying for scholarships and grants for school. Growing a tad impatient, honestly. I really just wish the lenders would just give it to me with out all the unnecessary stress and investigation.  
  3. The lesson that is finally clear to me: do it right the first time, to avoid having to redo it later. 
  4. It is spring and my nails are (raspberry) red.  I defy trends. 
  5. Finished designing an outfit that was on a To Accomplish list some time all I need to do is  find the material I envision for it and get to work! Hopefully  it will be done before the end of May, because I have to be in the mood to do it. 
  6. I have come up with all sorts of excuses to not work out like I said I would this month and summer is approaching too fast to start slacking now! I still go to the gym, but not as often as I marked as gym days in my agenda. After my Sunday nap, I'm running my 3 miles to get the momentum rolling again, Monday morning up and at it again.
  7. As I was putting the pieces of my archives together, I realized that my heart has been stuck in a time machine, which means I, as a whole, am not moving forward. It is time to be present and trust that there is a reason he is not in my life anymore. It can't possibly be as hard as I make it out to be [Note to self: Spring cleaning season is upon us, Chymere, it is seriously time let go (without the relapse later on)]....because someone is out there, waiting for me to get out of that space of stagnancy, so he has the chance to love me in a way that surpasses my dreams and I am able to reciprocate it completely. 
  8. I still think about California. Everyday. Not only am I postponing the big move to complete undergrad and attempting to establish myself first, but in the same breath, turning down a lot of opportunities that were lined up.  Although it's a little disappointing to think about, I'm believing that the rather logical route is the right direction for me, but I can't lie and say that I never second guess that to the point where I want to just go where I know I belong, within the time frame I desire, and just finish school out there. All in due time, I suppose. Cali isn't going anywhere anytime soon and I doubt my mind will change about being a resident there. 
Chymere Anais

Friday, March 29, 2013

Keep it Simple.

Over the past few days, I've been basically putting the pieces of my complete archive together. This required some time and digging, but it's starting to look like my blog again.  I've jumped around so much, which made it really hard to include everything, but I'm satisfied with the content I was able to find.

From here on out, the purpose of this platform will remain as a space to express myself and share my thoughts/opinions with whoever chooses to pay attention, without the pressure of creating a brand or feeling the need to have posts that appeal to the general public in order to stay relevant. Keep it as simple as possible and let things flow naturally. If I gain a larger audience because of it, that's fine.  If my readership decreases due to lack of advertising via social media and things of that nature, that's fine too. 

The main reason for this "shift" is not wanting to deviate from the original motive of me creating a blog. Honestly, after so many years of blogging, I still don't think I'm hip to what blogging has become. Keeping up with the Joneses of this cyber world has never really been me. It's not that I don't want people to read what I put out there, I'm just not here to prove myself or be taken seriously as a writer anymore, at least as far as The Sweetheart Chronicles go.  On top of that, I have so many other projects, obligations, and responsibilities, both business and personal, most of which will require marketing and mass communication at some point.  At the end of the day, I just wanted my freedom. In just a few days, I believe I've managed to get closer to achieving that. 

Mother darling thinks I'm a modern day hippie most days, but did hippies have ambition? I don't think so, or else they would not fall so effortlessly into the category. However, I don't think I'm such a misfit in a gang of free-spirited art lovers and deep thinkers, who are mainly concerned with love, justice for all, and world peace. That was random, but will have to serve as an example of the point I'm attempting to make: Despite what labels may be thrown on me for just wanting to create and live simply, writing is my natural high, and I'm feeling back to myself again.
-Chymere A.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

College Guide to Maximizing the Collegiate Experience

Initially, I went in to college face forward, running before crawling. Needless to say, the important things weren't a priority. There are so many things I wish I did freshman year, so much advice I probably should have paid better attention to.  

Many times I catch myself wishing I could be that ambitious, curious about the world 17 year old girl again, but  time can't be reversed that way. All we can really do accept it, reconstruct how we look at certain things, and continue to live. The only time we ever have is now. College has been great experience for me thus far and I know that when I return I'll have a better idea of my purpose.  

I made the choice to go back to college, because I personally think it's necessary for me. As ready as I am to complete undergrad and as much as I have finally fixated my mind in scholar mode, I still have plenty of room to enjoy the rest of the ride. Therefore, in order for me to better navigate the next year or so, I came up with a few fundamental tips, mainly for incoming freshmen,  that I definitely plan to apply the next time around.  

As mentioned in a previous post, it is never too late to start over, rebuild a better foundation, and accomplished what wasn't achieved in the first place. 

  1. College is expensive...we all know that. Look at it as an investment.   Always be alert for scholarship opportunities. Ease the burden by researching and applying for as much funding as possible from different avenues.
  2. Study more than you have to. One of my professors encouraged us to do this. Students despised her bizarre teaching antics, but I grew to appreciate them. She made us think outside the box and understand that the world, beyond college, has so much information to offer.
  3. Create study groups of people who bring different strengths and weaknesses to the table. Not only does it alleviate the work load of studying alone, it allows you to have peers that are there to help when something doesn't make complete sense to you. 
  4. It is very cool to say no to parties from time to time. They will happen several times again, with the same faces in attendance at all of them. Valuable friends will never make you skip class, an assignment, or study session/important meeting for a party.  It's okay to have fun from time to time, but remember your main reason for being there is to get an education. Never forget that commonly overlooked fact.
  5. Do not get overly involved with one person.  Don't get me wrong, love is beautiful and I know many couples who met in college. However, it's still important that your social life is balanced between your friends and the person you're dating.  Furthermore,  If he/she doesn't motivate you to be a better person on all levels while you're in college, move on and focus on yourself until you attract the person who does.
  6. Safe sex or no sex, no exceptions. Read up on statistics of the STD /HIV and pregnancy rates of American college students; it will blow your mind and should scare you out of your boots.
  7. Network, networknetworkPut yourself out there by getting involved, finding groups that cater to your interest, and making appearances at different educational events, even if it means coming out of your own shell of comfort. It's not always about who you know; more often than not, it's about who knows you.  
  8. Breaks are good. Attend sporting events, plays, and different on-campus activities. Take time in the weekend to absorb the area with new friends, especially if you're an out-of-state student. It keeps the stress level down and allows your mind to stay refreshed.
  9. Find different ways to create income, even if it's just a part-time hustle on the weekends. It will teach good time management skills and allow you to get a good feel for independence.
  10. Stay focused and learn the art of tunnel vision.

In retrospect, I can honestly say that I am 1,000 x's more ecstatic about being a scholar of higher learning now than I was at 17.

♥ Chymere A.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Soundtrack Saturdays: Vol. 46 {Mirrors}

This song and video are absolutely amazing!! (how fitting the lyrics are as well). Based on what I've heard so far from the album and the feedback it's getting, I just might be adding the '20/20 Experience' to my collection very soon!

Have any of you purchased or listened to the ablum yet? What are your thoughts?


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Spring Cleaning

Here I am sitting down to write on the evening of the first day of the vernal spring solstice.  I find first days  to be significant for different times throughout the year, and spring has always prompted me to think it is the season of rebirth. All the dead trees are coming to life with beautiful colors, flowers coming into bloom for the first phase of their life.  What I did not know was my thoughts about the season are in accordance to the Chinese understanding of the spring equinox. Isn't it amazing when one culture's translation of something resonates with another culture's understanding sometimes? I think it is, indeed.

As my family is preparing to move in a few weeks, I realize how much stuff we have collectively accumulated over the past few years. It's just bananas! So as we are making that transition as a unit, I thought it would be a perfect time to share what I am also learning and help those who need to do a little cleaning prior to moving to that new place in life.

{From The Chymere Anais Collection, Day #51}

♥ Phase I: LET GO

Suppose you are moving into a new house.  This new house may or may not be bigger in size, however, it's one that is perfect for you. Anytime someone dives into home ownership, as I have learned from my parents and HGTV, there are a lot of cost factors to consider.  In that case, not only have you invested a lot of time, energy, and money into saving for it, you've also fallen completely in love with it.  After mapping out your budget for the down payment, inspection, maintenance, etc. you notice that in order to stay within that budget, there is only room for one moving truck. But wait! It isn't even enough room to pack all of your belongings and it's too costly to make multiple trips. So what can you do? This is that point where you realize, through the process of elimination, what is and isn't important; it's liquidation time. It is time to venture to the attic to that box of dresses you haven't touched in over a decade...or that trunk full of random nostalgic nick-knacks from when you were younger.

In order to make room for greater, better things, you have to first LET STUFF GO! This task is probably the hardest if you are anything like me. Giving every single thing significance, when most of the time it's simply fear in disguise. This does not necessarily mean things such as family heirlooms or photos that do actually have a priceless value tag.  Think about what kind of energy is attached to those things that you are so afraid to let go of and can easily be replaced.  Chances are, you already know what you can let go of, like your sweater from the first day of kindergarten. If it adds no value to your life, it is not worth holding on to. As heart wrenching as it seems at the moment, touch it one last time and: Let. It. Go.

Now you have created space for something new to take place. Congratulations!

Now let's talk about moving in and your housewarming party...(to be continued...)

 Chymere Anais

**To new readers to the series, a link for Phase II will be included at the end of this post after it has been posted!**


Monday, March 18, 2013

March Review | 1st Quarter

The first quarter of my year is quickly coming to a beautiful close. It has been an amazing journey through 2013 thus far and from where I stand, it's looking like it can only get better from here. So many wonderful things are in store for the remainder of the year and I'm anticipating the next three quarters.

Perhaps, you're curious to know why I classify my year in quarters.  I started doing this in high school, using the game of basketball as a guide. Every three months, I would do a reevaluation to see what I've accomplished (talk with coaches, go over plays to understand what worked and what didn't, discover what can be done better in the following quarter to improve my game, etc.). After the 3 month life reset challenge that so many bloggers participated in at the end of last year presented by KimberlyLuxe, I thought it would be a great idea to continue breaking my year up into four  3-month quarters to tackle specific goals on my goal list and to give each checkpoint a defining theme, this quarter's primary theme being FOCUS. Organizing my goals in such a precise way has really allowed me to get things done one step at a time and the deadline of approximately 90 days has pretty much helped me function within certain perimeters. This set up has worked for me, absolutely.

My suggestion for anyone who wants to do the same thing with their year, is to learn what fits your personality, schedule, and mind set best.  It also depends on what your goals are and how long you think it will take to accomplish them. It could even be different steps to a greater goal. It's all up to you.

Now, I'm mapping out my play list for the next few months and if you don't know what that is in reference to a goal sheet, check out my March Playlist.  Basically, it's a play-by-play of the everything I want to do in that particular month...from books to read to things to buy.  I was thinking of posting these once every quarter, but as I'm crossing off things on that list from March, it's looking like the time will come to post another one very soon, so we shall see.

I hope that all of you are doing exceptionally well in tackling your personal ventures and that the new year has already opened doors of abundance for you.  

Happy Dream Chasing to all of you!!! 

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Soundtrack Saturdays: Vol. 45 {Work}

This song is my new power jam, thanks to highstrunggypsy. It's been on repeat ever since I heard it! The name Iggy Azalea has been floating around the music buzz, but this is my first time ever hearing anything by her.  I love this song, so perhaps I'll take some time this weekend to look up some more of more of her music and let you guys know how I feel about her as an artist next week!  


Friday, March 15, 2013

Finally Friday!!!

This has been one of those weeks...and I'm elated that the weekend is finally here!  Typically, I don't feel the need to be as productive over the weekend, because I just need those days to relax, recharge, and let my invisible yet lavish hair down .

I've been having a lot of fun with my creativity lately; dabbling in everything from trying new recipes that I think up myself, to designing clothes, to writing new material, and still keeping up with my 365 photography project.  All of it has really helped keep the stress level down.  When so much starts to happen all at once seems like in my personal life, both art and exercise have always allowed me to channel my emotions better. Hopefully, I'll be able to share some things I've been working on soon. 

As far as my weekend plans go, there are none set in stone yet, but the best things in life are often spontaneous and unexpected, so we shall see what the weekend holds. The possibilities are endless...

What are your weekend plans? Are you making time to step away from busy work/school schedules to enjoy life and the people around you?


Monday, March 11, 2013

College Diaries: Never Too Late

At times I tend to think I'm older than I actually am, allowing myself to drown in the woes of past mistakes and watching all my counterparts swiftly pass me by.  This gets to be a burden and ultimately an obstacle that I've created on my own, because while I'm preoccupied with playing the victim, time just keeps progressing and I'm on the sidelines wondering where it drifted to.  

When I mentally calculate graduation time, I include comparisons to the people who were freshmen in high school when I was a senior that will probably be graduating with me or younger students who have already finished their college career before me. Worst yet, I'll think of all my little cousins who will be in college the same time as me. As ridiculous as it sounds, the thought of me being so much older than them depressed me and, for a while, stopped me from even trying.  

Then, I take a look at individuals who have decided to continue their college education at a much older age than I.  I admire the strength of these people, because despite the constant reminder of age by often being the oldest person in class, they remember what must be done. Whether it's a personal goal they never accomplished or they want to improve the quality of their life on some scale, they remember that it's not always about other people; it's about being selfish enough to follow what it takes to improve and achieve higher learning. 

School has always only been somewhat important to me, but I've always been uncertain about whether or not I wanted to continue.  Maybe a small part of me was still convinced that I wasn't designed for college. By the way, I no longer believe that is true for anyone.  You can do whatever you put your mind to and any human brain is capable of comprehending college level courses).

Sometimes I would sit in class and doodle or daydream, bored out of my mind. Other times I lacked focus in my studies. Sometimes in a lecture I would sit and daydream about a million other things I'd rather be doing.  But doesn't that happen to everyone?  It's all a matter of sticking it out and never, ever giving up, which is something I'm constantly preaching about, but not honestly living.  Nothing worth having is easy to obtain.  

Do I think one can obtain success without a degree? Absolutely.  However, that's not the road I want to take.  I think I owe it to myself, and those who have believed and invested in me, to finish what I started. There is still a level of discipline that comes with classroom learning.  Resources are abundant all over this earth, but there is more value in perspectives gained from professors and peers alike. Plus, the collegiate experience is not restricted to a classroom environment; it goes way beyond that. It's about challenge, networking, creating and sustaining opportunity, and the list goes on. 

I now realize that it's never too late to fulfill whatever goals you set out to achieve. Not only is it unhealthy to beat yourself up over things that can't be undone, but it's also just as bad to compare your journey to someone else's. Every breath is a brand new opportunity to rise above self inflicted limitations and live out your dreams at your own pace.

I'll close this out with one of my favorite quotes that pretty much sums up where I am mentally:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." 
-Marianne Williamson

♥ Chymere A. 


Saturday, March 9, 2013

Soundtrack Saturdays: Vol. 44 {Mood Music}

This has been a partially nostalgic, weird assortment of up and down, back and forth emotions type of week for me, so there isn't a particular theme, but rather a play list of moods.  All I know is, and am thankful for, I made it through and was able to keep a record of a few songs that stuck out to me on this roller coaster ride of a week.  As music usually does, it brought me back to a place where I am balance and sane.

When all words fail, music speaks.
  1. Banana Pancakes x Jack Johnson
  2. Breathe Me x Sia
  3. A Song For You x Donnie Hathaway 
  4. Beautiful x India.Arie
  5. GravitySara Bareilles
  6. Painted on Canvas x Gregory Porter
  7. Celestial x Tori Kelly
  8. Til it Happens to You x Corinne Bailey Rae
  9. Sunlight x Esperanza Spalding
  10. Butterfly x Corinne Bailey Rae
Chymere Anais 


Inspired by The Indie Byline

♥ In Lust With:  Matt Kemp of the L.A. Dodgers...all I can say is...mmm mmm mmm...didn't he date Rihanna? Whatever..that's beside the point..

In Love With:  My support system: My family, my true friends, and people (who have been around since the mere thought of me) that still check on me out of loyalty to my grandparents

Working On: strategy, or an execution plan rather.  Jumping head first isn't always the smartest move to make and with that faint sign of maturity, I'm doing what I to create a safety net of dreams and reality for me to land safely; making my next move my best move.

Favorite Words:  Although I'm unsure of the original author, this letter that has been floating around tumblr is simply exquisite...and I can't honestly say I use that word to describe things often.  The day someone loves me in that script is the day the universe has openly welcomed me to heaven without requiring an exit in the physical realm first. Yes. Just that beautiful, so read it! 

Favorite Visual: star studded skies, wishing my camera was good enough to take pictures of them. 

Favorite Sound:  Tori Kelly's voice sounds angelic and she KILLED that cover of Michael Jackson's PYT, which (in its original version) is one of my favorite songs by the way. I think I've mentioned her about 3-4 times over the course of this blog already, because she is just that awesome. 

Over the Moon About: the freedom of choices, even the illusion of them. Do any of you realize how much of a luxury that is in comparison to cultures who don't have the ability to decide at all?  It's powerful when you think about it.

Thinking Of: a person I really wish I could stop thinking about...

Dreaming Of: exotic Ambergris Caye, Belize...or Cairo, Egypt...Santorini, Greece.  I cannot wait until the day that my passport is stuffed with stamps from these places plus some.

Chymere Anais

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Notes to Self: Unfinished Business

I've given a great amount of thought to postponing my move to California. As much as I want to go, most of me wanting to wait has to do with unfinished business and it just hasn't felt like the right time.  I'm coming to an understanding, specifically about big decisions like this one, that require at least a little bit of structure and order before committing.  Without going into elaborate detail about my "plans", here is a list of some of the thoughts that have come up in my quiet time, where I am able to think, reflect, and become engulfed in my true desires, all of which I must sort through before moving forward: 
  • Always finish what you started.
  • Don't assume that an incomplete chapter is over just because you decided to walk away from it.
  • Never leave the place that you're in messy. Clean before you leave (literally and figuratively).
  • When you try to run from your problems, they will only follow you.
  • Realize that there are different levels of progression and you must master one before you are able to reach the other.
  • Be weary of sharing plans with others before they are finalized. 
  • Make room for the transition process to unfold smoothly.
  • Be patient, because timing is key.
  • Find and distinguish your own authentic voice to be able to have clear intentions and true to self motives
Not to say that Cali has disappeared from my dream list because it certainly hasn't. There isn't really a rush at this point; I'm still in my early 20's and if it's designed to happen, whether it is as soon as I thought or later on, it will.  I just have to be present for awhile to ensure that none of my personal goals are fragmented before I land. 

-Chymere A.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Nostalgic Moments

If I am ever given the opportunity to sit still long enough, my mind will sometimes drift into my past. During these moments, I travel down memory lane and at some point on my journey on that long, begotten trail, I stop, holding my thoughts within a particular time frame. Although I risk being stung by historical pain, usually, the stopping point turns out to be quite a pleasant memory that exudes so much happiness I can vividly imagine myself reliving that very moment.  With the joy of time reversal on my side, even if in my imagination, I begin trying to restore as much as I can from that time period. I dig up old photographs, read old journals, and get lost in that place through as many sources as possible. It's become something like a hobby, not to be mistaken for an obsession, to uncover where my mind was versus where it is now. Sometimes I'm shocked by what I find, as if I were never present in those moments and shocked by provoked feelings as if the present doesn't exist, but mostly I'm happy, with a more objective outlook rather than wishing for a return.  

During my attempt to restore lost times, somehow, I managed to gain access to my original blog that I started circa February 2009, The Sweetheart Chronicles.  Browsing through 2 years worth of my life in written form, I realized that there was a lot of material that I felt was still fitting to the current times.  In order to create a more personal atmosphere, I decided to start adding a few  post to my blog according to the date they were originally posted, all of which can be found under the archives in the right side bar.  It's amazing how the core of some things never really change.  It almost felt like i was putting the pieces of my own life puzzle back together in a sense and I'm finding things I never really paid much attention to before.  Also, the fact that nothing is ever really permanently deleted from cyberspace is even more fascinating.

To me, nostalgia isn't necessarily a bad, forbidden thing.  I am aware that every step I've taken thusfar has allowed and pushed me to move forward. Every person I've encountered, in some way or another, has been in my life for a specific reason. I'm not able to clearly script a non-fictional story, nor a fictional one based on my own experiences, without diving into that universe from time to time, just like it's not sensible to drive safely without checking the rear view mirror periodically. I'm just happy to be at a place now where I'm not afraid to be an open book....because the truth of the matter is, the only eyes that ever cross my words are eyes of people who are supposed to get something from whatever I/my story have/has to offer them at the time.  Whoever reads my mess my message, was led by a much greater force than temptation, and understanding this has given me more reasons to keep writing, just for the love of it. 

“Strange, how the best moments of our lives we scarcely notice except in looking back.”  -Joe Abercrombie


The Happy List: 10 Things That Bring Me Joy

  1. Music.  There has to be some kind of magic dust in music.  It's a force that has the power to provoke any emotion; a force that can cause and calm any raging storm that takes place inside me.  
  2. The love shared between friends and family members are bonds very sacred to me.  No matter what the distance, that connection grounds and sustains me and for that I am eternally grateful.
  3. Movie nights are just the best thing to do on nights where no one really feels like going out for whatever reason.  Intimate nights like this bring people close. 
  4. Feel good shows (i.e. The Cosby Show, Boy Meets World, A Different World, etc.).  What happened to television with actual story lines, positive role models, and happy endings? Reality TV is pollution to a space where good sitcoms once existed. 
  5. Large bodies of water hold the capacity center me. With each molecule, I find peace. When I submerge myself in a pool, or stand at the shore of crashing waves, happiness just takes over my being in ways I can't begin to explain.  In or near water, I am completely in my element and there is no place in the world like it.  
  6. Cupcakes. Why cupcakes have the ability to make me smile is beyond me.  I love the delicate sweetness of an adorable, well made cupcake.
  7. The enthusiasm that my dog has when I come home is incredible. Her tail wags rapidly as she jumps to beg for wet kisses.   She doesn't seem to care how long I've left her alone, so I can live in my world surrounded by colleagues, associates and friends. All she knows is I'm home and that's good enough for her.
  8. Children's laughter is just so fearless, innocent, and fully of simple joy.  I admire the effortless giggles that are usually ignited by things adults don't even notice.
  9. Sunrises/sunsets are the epitome of God's amazing artistry.  The way the sun perfectly sits on a landscape at dusk and dawn, centered strategically in a sky of a spectrum of contrasting colors is so easy to get lost in.
  10. Beautiful words. Naturally, I fall in love with literature.  This is not limited to a book, but any play of words that tell a story.  It's amazing what can be learned by reading how people write their hearts and souls on a blank canvas. 

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Soundtrack Saturdays: Vol. 43 {Simply Beautiful}

One of my favorite "underground" musicians, Mara Hruby, sings my heart once again with her latest work...Such incredible artistry that I have to just let the song speak for itself...Enjoy!

Mara Hruby
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H E R E 

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